Thursday, May 31, 2007

Signs & Imprints on Our Heart


Well first let me apologize for not posting yesterday. I came home Tuesday evening & my cable & internet were out. Comcast came out Wed afternoon. I then had to run errands & didn't get back until after 10pm & then I just was so pooped. I'm just getting my act together now.

Now this posting is an inspired one that makes me always wonder about "signs". Remember the movie "Fools Rush In" & "there are signs everywhere" well there are literally but...

Ok, this is what happened. I picked up an older edition of Oprah's magazine to read her "What I Know For Sure" (read the one I read here!). It was about our hearts having imprints from others on them. She talked about Mattie Stepanek having imprints on our hearts for example. Then I finished reading this & come to my computer & the first journal posting I read is Winivere's "You Left Imprints On My Heart". Is that not freaky! You think it was trying to tell me something?

I had found out a great-aunt of mine died this morning & I remember a number of years ago a very special gentleman telling me that people are pieces of our heart like a puzzle and it is sad when a piece is missing. I think now I think of it as not missing really, but rather it is a piece that is placed in there completely & now you look for other pieces. Sometimes they pass away, sometimes they just are not in our lives anymore for another reason but they still have a role in developing our heart. Oprah said...

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That's what love does: It fills you up, mends the tattered and broken spaces in your spirit. It makes you feel whole."

It is also interesting because I have been asking God lately just how goofy he really is. Let me explain...


Ok, about a week ago I met this guy shopping for a gift for my cousin & well I thought he was just being nice to me. I never think they are interested in me. He is really funny. I love guys that make me laugh, and the fact that he is a die hard Cubs fan works majorly in his favor!!! Well, I kept thinking about him. Hmm..that should have told me something! I saw him last night & well its definite...he is interested. He asked me out last night & I was like so shocked because that incredibly wonderful feeling when someone is interested in you just automatically came over me. I don't even know where it came from & I'm a bit surprised. Even surprised I'm surprised? Ha! I don't know what to make of it. I guess I'm at a place where I'm ok to feel that way again? Hmmm....I'm not sure I am though but its like, oh well too bad you do. I mean I know he could be a dog, but I guess I'll find out & that is ok. Wierd. So I think God is like a mad scientist combining steaming different colored liquids & saying lets see what happens to her when I add these two & then you see a mini explosion & lots of smoke & hear this weird laugh from him. Well, more lately like he has a voodoo doll of me & is putting pins in it with my back etc. HA! It is just not a good time, my herniated disks, I'm not at my best spirit etc. I just have the weirdest timing for one reason or another in my life. Of course not...life couldn't be even a bit easy for me even for a moment! Ugh! What would a high need for achiever do with an easy life. HA!

So, then to connect this, in case you have lost this, it makes me wonder...maybe it is "the perfect timing"?! Maybe I need this now. Maybe it will heal my heart? Maybe it will mend my tattered pieces & make me feel whole. Even if it is just for a bit...a jump starting of it, so it can get going again? Not that is has been dead but you know this just makes it a bit more energize & special & I don't know...it is just a nice feeling to have isn't it. Maybe it will energize me to heal my body? Maybe he will lead me to "the one" who wants to hold my heart tenderly and take care of it & let me do the same for him. Life is just soooo bizarre isn't it! So, I guess I want to say, we may feel at times that our hearts can get hurt very badly when love ends for one reason or another but it also has such tremendous power to heal and make us stronger if we let it. Each of us can do this for others & there are so many on this planet that can do this for us. I also think that many times those whose hearts are so cold it is because they do not have someone who is loving them and seeing them as somone special on this planet that can do anything they wanted in a more positive way and that is so sad. Well, I'm going to go see this man tonight who is tingling my heart. I hope you have a lovely evening as well.

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Monday, May 28, 2007

Everyday Heroes/Angels


Today, or rather yesterday now, was a day to honor some of our heroes. Not to diminish their significance, but it made me think of really the idea that we should have a day which honors so many other types of heroes or Angels in our lives. It also makes me think of who are our heroes? What does it take to be hero? There are so many everyday ordinary heroes. Do we tell those we consider our heroes? Are we are hero to someone? Remember Sandra Bullock's line in "While You Were Sleeping" when she tells Peter Gallagher he is a hero for giving up his seat to a woman..."It is to the person who you gave the seat to." Also, remember Grumpy Old Men when Jack Lemon asks Ann-Margret if she believes in Angels & she says, "Oh ya, they are all around us. You have to look hard but they are there whenever anything good happens to us." :-)

Who is the wind beneath your wings? I just love Bette and this song.  It is songs like this that I wish I had a better voice so I could sing them to those who I consider my heroes.

     Did you ever know that you're my hero,
     and ev'rything I would like to be?
     I can fly higher than an eagle,
     'cause you are the wind beneath my wings.


And I think this is what I look for in people (& probably a mate)...there is a light in them. It is like they smile with their eyes. They "get it"...they KNOW what life is really about.  They make it their mission to make other people's lives better. I think I like being around them so I can push myself to do that more each day myself. They are also ones who see the potential in you, sometimes more than you do. They are someone who gets others to think more positively of themselves & the world. Some may call them unrealistic, butI call them optimisitc...think about that! Hmmm...

Which brings me to this next song of Bette's. They believe in all posibilities. They keep striving to make the world a better place. I tell my students when they see some type of brick wall, barrier in their lives, that they do not have to knock down the whole wall. If they think about it, they can each make a contribution...a small hole in the wall & with everyone's effort it can come down. Also, if they think about it, a few small holes placed strategically could bring the wall down with very little effort. In this way we can all be heroes with every step we take. Opening a door for someone, etc. it collectively adds to make the world a happier and better place.  And really...if you think about it...isn't it just LOVE?! Love for life...love for the planet and all creatures on it. It is someone who is grounded and knows Love is the only thing that matters.  


Check out this website of heroes like Mattie Stepanek and others!

Ok, so now that I've totally gone sappy I'll go! ;-)

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Sunday, May 27, 2007

Don't Stop The Rain!


Hi!

Are you listening to the song? :-)  Now I didn't select this song because it happened to be raining this weekend by me. Nor did I select it because I had to memorize it for my kindergarten show & my memory of the lyrics is still almost perfect! :-) I decided to place it on my journal because of the idea of it. Look at the picture above too! :-) (Boy that is 3 smileys already...guess I'm in a good mood! Ha!)

The idea is first to remember that rain is not always a bad thing! It provides nutrients to the plants and animals outside. Flowers....oh I could not live without their colorful beauty! And when was the last time you had fun stomping in the puddles? Well, make it something you do once this summer. There is one gentleman who may be very happy tonight for the rain....our newest Indy 500 winner! :-) And I'm sure some guys loved seeing Ashley Judd all wet! HA! 

Next, we do have umbrellas to protect us from getting wet. What are the umbrellas in your life shielding & protecting you from the rain in your life? And umbrellas are just so much fun twirling! And you can have fun picking out fun umbrellas! Don't just get the plain black or blue ones! My mom has a Zebra one she uses since my niece loves Zebras! :-)

Now next is the idea of "rainy days". We sometimes think of them as depressing & bad or negative but you don't have to really, first in light of what I've said above, but also you can let the rain in your life just roll off the umbrella of your spirit if you like. Now look at this part of the lyrics...


But there's one thing I know
The blues they send to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep fallin' on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Cryin's not for me
'Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothin's worryin' me

Now see...you can think of it as a good thing & how the rain in your life may still be nutrients  & fun to strengthen  your spirit. Perhaps it can allow you to have fun inside for a change. ;-) Yes, I'm trying to keep this in mind with my recent back issues myself.

Finally, I apologize if you receive a lot of alerts today. I was working on the sidebar to include some of my favorite links. I have a whole bunch for you to look at. Now these can be useful on a rainy day! :-)

Saturday, May 26, 2007

Taking Care of Yourself


Well, I thought I would share an interesting idea I heard on Oprah last night. I don't watch often but this was the episode on her Spa Trip. Check out the links on Mindfulness & Meditation etc they are actually good. These are things I've done for my years with my Tai Chi Instructor. Dr. Oz was talking about breathing right & I've been teaching this to my students for years.

Later Martha Beck was on & she talked about how women are always giving to everyone else but don't take care of themselves. She explained we should visualize a child or parent sick in bed & we kneel by their bed & stroke their hair & comfort them, kiss them on the forhead etc. But then we should imagine the person turning over & it is us. She said we should have SELF-COMPASSION. Wow! That really was an eye opener....or Oprah's AHA Moment!

I do that all the time, I may talk about my health issues etc, women like to troubles talk (Dr. Tannen) but we also minimize it...I'll say "But there are people much worse off than me so..." to keep perspective which is good to a point. We don't like pity or self-pity but the perspective is it is not pity if you have the right perspective...it is compassion. And it is so interesting, people don't have time to talk anymore, they are so busy with their lives or they label people as "whiners" or "high maintenance"  and so they don't get to talk and have to pay a counselor or therapist to listen to you. Actually, even these journals are a form of outlet for many. I know sometimes we do get to & some have friends who will listen quite a bit but how often or are there enough times. Guys even more so...they do activities together but don't always talk about their frustrations etc. 

It was a great reminder that you have to take care of yourself first to take care of others. So give yourself a great big hug today & do something for yourself first. And maybe this means we should be more cognizant that we make sure the people we love are able to take time for themselves or do for them. Maybe we remind them they deserve the time for a walk or reading time or a LOVELY MASSAGE! ;-)  

Friday, May 25, 2007

Why Can't You?


Ahh I love big strong horses! I think that explains a lot about me in many ways.

It is how they are grounded solid, their strength, and you can see the confidence that they know who they are and no one can tell them differently or would dare mess with them. I think I've lost a bit of that since college but I think that comes from my recent injuries the last couple of years...they tend to make one feel weaker, especially when you can't do for yourself. The great thing is one can still work on it each day & progress.



"One of the greatest discoveries a man makes, one of his great
surprises, is to find he can do what he was afraid he couldn't do."
~
Henry Ford

Isn't this sooo true! I don't know how many students of mine think they can't do something & they haven't even tried. I remember even as a young kid I would think "Well, tell me one logical reason they can do or have this & I can't"  There never was one. I tell my students the same thing now. 

What have you been afraid you can not do or have?

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Bust Your Fear

Well, I spent my day pretty much on the phone. I was trying to make an apt for a 2nd opinion for my back and investigate the Vax-D method of treatment. I am trying to get more information,and keep my control by taking action, thus this quote seemed to be perfect for today.

"The two greatest fear busters are knowledge and action."
                        - Denis Waitley

I feel less fear today especially investigating the Vax-D and I feel pretty positive I'm going to try it & that it will work. This brought my fear down considerably. I'm still not thrilled on the one possibility with my hip but I'm trying not to worry until I find out.

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

The Stairway of Life

Well this seems to speak to my spirit today. Ugh! It was a big step today with the neurosurgeon & seems like a lot of stairs ahead of me.

Reminds me of "Something's Gotta Give" remember when Jack Nicholson can climb a flight of stairs he can have sex. HA! Somehow that just bummed me a bit but the idea is...

Take it one step at a time!

I hope they are just not too big of steps....well gotta keep trying!